You know how they say the way you spend New Years is the way you'll spend the rest of the year? Well hopefully that's a load of bullshit, otherwise I have a very lonely yet over dramatic year ahead of me. The one thing I hoped wouldn't happen, did. I stood side by side with my ex for New Years count down and even though I love the guy to bits and for the first part of the night was having an amazing fun time with him, there was still a lot of sadness. After all we've been through we still somehow managed to be together to ring in 2010. What the fuck? But that sadness soon turned into drunken drama when it got too hard being around each other without actually being with each other. Which resulted in a quick exit in the rain to catch a cab outta there. Happy fucking New Year right?
But it's a brand new year, new decade even and today I'm having some sort of midday/life crisis. Craving change. My whole life situation needs to be flipped. A new job and a new home (the amount of rent I pay could save a whole village in Africa) are the first things I need to get my life in order ie. save money for my getaway plan. I still haven't heard back from Uni and to be honest I keep forgetting I even applied. Once I hear the verdict then it's time to make some big decisions.
I also need a massive detox in the boy department. 2009 saw a lot of fleetings flings with a scatter of complete douchbags. I plan on being a lot more wiser this year with my choices. But boys is the last thing I'm concerned about right now. I've wasted too much energy and time playing games. I'm out.
New Year, new job, new home, new savings account, new outlook on life. I'm wishing myself all the luck in the world, cos I'm going to need it!
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